Peace

Oh yes!! I really love this mug!! It was actually donated in one of our yard sale fundraisers we had over the summer.. I can remember seeing this at Barnes and Noble a few years ago and even getting the magnet version for my dear friend Valerie.. surely this was more applicable to her hurried heart at the time than mine. And then I saw this mug in a pile of ((generously)) donated items for our BIG cause!! Reading over the words I felt such a tug at this ((pulled in many directions)) heart of mine!

So, this heart has been at work.

This heart~work has been so freeing.

The free~ing has been the best gift I could get ((and give)) to myself ((and to my children)).

Ahhhh. To be in the midst of all that is crazy!!

Zscha. (( so you know.. this sounds like a little slobbery sound.. perhaps a sound you might make when petting a kitten.. or a beagle puppy.. or a newborn baby giraffe ))

Ahhhhh. To be at the epicenter of silence.. and longing for some noise.

Zschaaa.

Oh...To listen carefully to a new utterance..a stringing together of sounds~ that make a word, and then another..forming a beautiful sentence.."I want, spin me around".. and knowing this is something you have been waiting for your whole life..  ** Yes.. my whole life.. I have known I would be a mother. I have, for my whole life, longed to be someone Sam would want to be loved by.

Zscha.Zscha. ((my peaceful contentment))

So, we were playing yesterday in his wonderful room. Myles was playing with Lori. Owie was resting...or so we thought.

Zscha.Zscha.Zscha.

I posted this on Facebook, and was met with such loving responses.. and much laughter, of course!

I did say his name with varied emphasis on each syllable .

There was no way to discern what to do first with regard to cleaning up..

bath..check.

water bottle and metal spoon for scraping..check.

hands and knees positioning..check.

lots of smiling..check.

a feeling of overwhelming...peace... Zscha!! Check!

Here he is..

My little super hero.

The one we have been surprised with from the start!!

Sweet O.

 

Patience.

The biggest response, by far, to the paint "Incident".

 

Having Peace In My Heart.

no matter the circumstances.

 

This was my heart~work.

 

I believe it is one thing to have patience about something.

The waiting can be a tough one though.

 

How PEACEFUL you feel during the waiting.

Within the midst.

In the trenches.

Even on the horizon.. sometimes we are just not peaceful.. no matter what.

 

This is my wish for my little family.

That true peace would be ever present.

I am so glad to have been chosen for this little life.

 

May you also do the crazy thing on your heart.

and let us all call it a thing of wonder!!

 

Joyfully.

me

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Inspiring

Inspire:

1. to fill with an animating, quickening, or exalting influence

 

2. to produce or arouse (a feeling, thought, etc.): to inspire confidence in others. 

 

3. to fill or affect with a specified feeling, thought, etc.

 

4. to influence or impel 

 

5. to animate, as an influence, feeling, thought, or the like, does: They were inspired by a belief in a better future.

 

6. to communicate or suggest by a divine or supernatural influence: writings inspired by God. 

 

7. to guide or control by divine influence.

 

8. to prompt or instigate (utterances, acts, etc.) by influence, without avowal of responsibility.

 

9. to give rise to, bring about, cause, etc.

 

10. to take (air, gases, etc.) into the lungs in breathing; inhale.

 

11. a. to infuse (breath, life, etc.) by breathing (usually followed by into  ).

      b. to breathe into or upon.

 

I have been inspired lately in so many ways!!

 

* watching the boys say a variety of different words and combinations..with eyes wide open.. what an inspiration to my Mommy heart.

* writing down the account of our Son~Rise journey this morning for our upcoming outreach in January. ((Thank you to everyone who helped make this possible.. your donations are being used in such a great way!!)) How INSPIRING to work so hard on that.. it took me a couple hours, with a few ((welcomed)) interruptions.. but in the end.. what a relief!! I, hands down, love talking about how much progress the boys are making..they are so inspiring to me to keep growing!!

* having the opportunity to go browse at Anthropologie twice in the last couple weeks.. WOW!  Although the prices were out of reach, the inspiration was abundant.. The colors and textures and patterns and styles and ideas a plenty!! Super Inspiring!!

*OUR VOLUNTEERS ARE AMAZING!! I have loved giving them feedback these past couple of weeks!! We are seeing so many sweet interactions in Sammy's playroom.. Incredible JOINING (( Sam is inspiring in that way too))...Fun is been had in there!! I am learning from watching them too!!

 

We are definitely inspired by a belief in a better future!!

 

AND... we are inspired by our better TODAY!!

 

TODAY.. right now.. is so inspiring!!!

 

A quiet, sleeping 2 year old.

A dripping rain.

A cup of tea.

A happy playing 9 1/2 year old..((which he declared the other day..Who told him he was "and a half" by the way?))

A blissful 8 year old.. making a tiny plastic cow fly through the air as if it is in a Blue Angel's air show.

Pandora Christmas music playing in the background.

Inspiring.

So... I sat down to write a quick little note right here.

 

Here's to great big plans!!

 

 

I hope you are inspired!!

 

Joyfully..

me

 

 

 

My wonder~filled life

Hello!Hello!

I am sure everyone has had the opportunity to welcome this season's hurry scurry flurry by now!!

Have you ENJOYED it ??
Any savoring going on??

YES! is my answer!

YES!
YES!
YESSSITY...YES!!

The tree is decorated.and keeps being admired closely by Sam..he has been "marking" ((ahem)) some of his favorite ornaments. We noticed as we were decorating this year that last year was particularly rough for the ornaments on the front lines!!

Broken wheels.. antlers.. arms.. all misplaced..but still all happily put back on the tree for another year of memory making!!

This Christmas is somehow magnified in my heart. I am like a heat seeking missile, searching for all that is most lovely.. all of the straight on eye gazes.. all of the BIG smiling and laughing.. there are words increasingly falling from the lips of my children... and the missile is simply my heart.. HOT and fiery with LOVE... and a perma~smile!!

I have had the chance recently to talk to a few friends about what our days were like a couple years ago ...before Son~Rise.. when we were in the freakin' trenches people!! I recalled all of the hope that was always so seemingly out of my reach..like always a breath of air between my reaching fingertips and all of what was to be.. my wonderful life.

I was so sad.. still with a smile on my face.. yet, aching and angry for the lack of respite in my life.

I have so much peace about it now.. but it was the catalyst for Myles' shutting down.. I was emotionally paralyzed and we slowly began to see him literally collapse before us.

This set the wheels in motion for us to seek some other way..

Son~Rise!!

I can say ((translate:shout it from the rooftops)).. we are on our way to recovery today!!
I am daily being recovered as we recover our boys.

Recover:

1. to get back or regain (something lost or taken away): to recover a stolen watch.

2. to make up for or make good (loss, damage, etc., to oneself).

3. to regain the strength, composure, balance, or the like, of (oneself).

 

I love the example of a stolen watch.. that represents my time.. our time.

 

Recovering our time together is happening in these heat seeking missile moments.

 

Recovering those precious moments I was choosing to be anger filled..and now choosing love.. and patience.. choosing perma~smiles even in the midst of a little hurry scurry!!

 

The gap has been closed on that space between the end of my fingertips...and MY WONDER~FILLED LIFE.

 

I take full hold of it.. these tender and massively awesome little days I have been given.

 

My heart is so full this season.

 

I hope yours is too.

 

Joyfully..

me

 

** and here.. a little video.. Here's to all the Beautiful Things!! Enjoy!!